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           My whole life before I came to Sweden, I didn't know how it feels like to be lonely.. I've been living separately with my family since I was 15 to live close to my school, and I continue moving to pursue my study in college also when I start to work and has been traveling alone without any company in meantime, so I would say that I am pretty getting used to being alone to do everything to live but to feel lonely? I never experienced those kinds of feeling at all. I was 24yo when I arrived in Sweden. There is no complete doubt in me to go to a new country for the first time because I believe everywhere is my home. So I do not worry whether I will get lost or so on. I feel fulfilled and content even during my stay in Sweden. I've been through a lot of shit all of sudden during my stay, but I felt there is a higher power that always drags me out, keeping me safe and helping me in every pathway that I've experienced. When I don't have money, fo...

    After almost six months of living in my home country, the memory of what was happening in the past ten months living in Sweden can't vanish all of sudden. I still trying to deal with it and also dealing with the feeling that never stops wondering around and popping up the question many times such as am I such a loser? Why after my hard time over there I still can't figure out how to stay in Sweden?. How I could go back? Why do I hear it was easy for them to stay but not in my case? Why You god! not allow me to stay over there? and if you're not letting me stay at least give me a clue about how I can move on from it but nothing. I was being negative, stuck on my sadness swamp literally since the first time I arrive here. It is a strange experience in my life I feel suffering a lot yet at the same time I found a little happiness in it and I would say that is the thing that I miss... I feel alive when I can survive on my stand.     I decided today, after h...

How i got my second host family, after i terminated my contract with my previous family? Well, I didn't know how to solve it. First, I didn't have much money left to support me to stay. Those previous dramas also are making me exhausted to keep going. I was decided to go back home if I didn't get a new family after two weeks, actually. Because I was stuck, if I wanted to keep going to find a new family, they probably wanted me to provide a recommendation as a record that I am doing good being as an Aupair. However, I only had one experience as an Aupair, and it didn't work well (which I don't have). Most people had just judged me, that I was too lazy to work. Although, the experience that I have done said the opposite. It is just impossible. But you know the Universe. Luckily, as usual, they help me to lead the way. Suddenly someone from the Aupair Facebook group sent me a message that they said need a new Aupair asap after they flew back from their holiday in Turke...

 Why i decided to terminated my contract with them?        Terminating a contract also wasn't an easy way that I had to think about, especially for trying to make sure the decision that I took does not a decision based on my emotional or ego side only. After 5 months of living with the same Host family. I decided to tell them that this was too much for me. I have had those decisions actually since the first month I live with them, but I was thinking like this is normal, especially during the probational period. Also, their previous Aupair told me that she has the same thought like me in the beginning and she convinced me it will be passed later. Then, I do agree with it. There are three main factors that were finally making my final decision. As a disclaimer, this is also not only their fault and I do have my fault also because I can't communicate my feeling, I don't have also an experience as a professional nanny and cleaning the house the way like what they ex...

            I would like to start my journey from the very first time, especially when I have already known about what is Aupair since I was in High School around 2012. I really want to apply for it, but it was just my desire, and ended up forgetting about it because I was too focused on my examination and was busy getting to my dream university. Along the way in 2019, after I was graduated from my University, I was busy again with my life and completely forgot about Aupair. I was just focused on my life to earn money and be productive as a Set Movie Designer until, at the beginning of 2020, the whole globe event hit me, just like everyone also. I lose my job because I usually work in the Movie industry, which obligates me to work moving from one place to another place so often, and it has to stop all of sudden. I was facing there is no income that I can earn and also didn't know what should I have done at that time... Furthermore, after 3 months staye...

The experience of arriving in a new country or a place always amazed me. Especially from trying to collect the details of information for your trips from scratch to prepare the stuff that you want to bring with you to that place. Definitely, you will prepare anything that you could think will help but sometimes we will miss other aspects. I was preparing myself to live in Sweden for three months before I went there but still after I took a look behind, I was still facing every seasonal obstacle to getting used to the new environment that I never even heard about it when I try to collect the information, so I will part my experience into four seasonal sections from the first time I arrive till I return home: 1. Spring           In spring 2021 I was facing getting illness in Sweden for the very first time. I didn't understand at first what cause me to be ill till I found out when my host parents in Sweden told me that they have pollen allergies. I started to ...

The journey in Sweden could be worth a lifetime, especially for me. The main thing that you have to know is how the bureaucracy works in Sweden, whether from having a local bank, local phone number, and how to register and join many activities in Sweden. This aspect would affect how you do your daily activities because Sweden is a well-known country for its efficiency and integrated system with cashless transactions. So it is better to prepare yourself in involving how the bureaucracy work in Sweden to make your life more convenient during your period of stay...   So, here it is the steps that directly I have to tackle after I arrive in Sweden : 1. Swedish Identification Number Right after I arrived in Sweden, I already got busy registering myself to get The coordination number. Mostly everybody who will migrate permanently or Swedish citizens they have a Personal Number which is the type of their Identity number that will align with everything that you need to do while you ar...